I have recently found myself in a very dark place. Many factors that I will spare you the gruesome details. With the exception of going to the doctor and finding I'm pre-diabetic. Probably my great Southern heritage and love of anything fried and/or sweet. I am related to my Me Maw.
An admission, that I am more than embarrassed by, I was arrested for DUI/DWI. Yes, I know better. No, it wasn't intentional. It just happened and there are no excuses, ever, for driving drunk. But those are the facts that I pled guilty to. I have always owned my mistakes.
In retrospect, for me, it was a blessing. In my dark state I had been making some bad choices that were out of character for me. Regardless, I have to own up to my failings. This is partly how I found out about the pre-diabetes. So, I am suffering the debt that Arizona demands and the worst part is not being able to ride Petunia for a year. In Arizona a DUI conviction requires an ignition interlock for a year and Arizona just passed a law to allow them on motorcycles again, but they aren't yet available.
So, I have been spending my time evaluating, heavily, what and why I am in this dark place. Again lets spare you the gruesome details, but internal, self reflection is an awful place to go when a person is honest.
I am making an honest effort to learn and grow from this terrible event. I can guarantee that there will never be a reoccurrence. On a brighter note, as I close, I have lost 35 pounds as I make lifestyle changes to combat the pre-diabetes.